Sunday, August 28, 2011

Tears


Today Hope asked me how many days she had lived here. I told her a year and a day. She asked again how many days she had lived here. I answered 366 days. She asked me how many days before she had to leave. I didn't let her see me cry.

17 comments:

Katydid said...

(((HUGS))) Heart Breaking

Rosalie said...

How did you respond?

Sunday said...

*Sigh* I get it.

(((HUGS))) for you both!

Last Mom said...

My girl is always waiting for the other shoe to drop, too.

Kelley said...

Wow. That must have been heart breaking honey. I can't imagine feeling that way. I can't imagine how it made your momma's heart feel. She'll see - she's never leaving. Love you.

angie said...
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angie said...

i love you mom, you are amazing....xoxoxo to you all. (p.s. deep breath) :)

Medkid said...

Mmm so sad. :(

Kelly said...

Bless her sweet heart. So glad she has you and won't EVER have to leave. ((Hugs to you and Hope))

"Lil Ol' Me" said...

Poor baby!! (((HUGS)) to you and your lil darling.

You are such an awesome momma!!


Love you darling!

Barb G said...

I remember the day before our adoption as we were explaining what adoption is. Our son listened closely, then asked, "So, a while after that, I will go back in foster care, right?" Broke my heart too.

Lisa said...

Now I'm crying. Bless her heart. Honestly, I think J thought the same thing (even though she's been home for 5 years) until we did the commitment ceremony this June. Somehow something just clicked for her then....

It will for Hope too. You're an amazing mother, L!

In the Pink said...

this made me cry...to think like that must be hard.

Accidental Expert said...

More hugs to you and Hope.

Mamita J said...

Poor little girl...imagine living with that as your foundational understanding of how things work. No wonder her daily stress level is so close to the breaking point. Mine would be too. :-(

Hugs to you. You're a great mom. Keep reminding her of your love. It takes time, but more and more, she will grasp it.

Denise said...

This made me cry, too. Heartbreaking...

Ten Beautiful Years said...

(((((((((((((♥)))))))))))))

It is only in hindsight of RAD meltdown that I am beginning to understand their perspective.

It really helps me to understand that our RADs only know disruption...

"Parents leave." and/or "I leave Parents."

Our older RAD had an estimated 17 sets of "parents" before us.) They have no experience what-so-ever to base the promise of a "forever family" on.

You are one awesome momma!!!!!
Keep on keeping on...