Maybe its the post holiday blues. I did not do Black Friday madness, but my 20 year old nephew did. I waited up for him to get home and it almost three before I got to bed. Maybe it is just tiredness.
Hope is playing up to everybody, except for gunning for me and GB. Thanksgiving Day Hope scratched GB and left a 4 inch mark. When I tried to talk to Hope, she took a swing at me. The Dad told me to back off and leave her alone. Yesterday, GB left a scratch on Hope. The Dad was all over her, reduced her to tears and removed her from the group. Never mind that Hope was not where she was suppose to be. At bedtime, GB still hadn't recovered. My sister's oldest and youngest are both special needs, though bio kids. The 14 year old and GB have always been oil and water. Visits have gotten harder lately, instead of easier.
I am feeling isolated today and hear that two bedroom apartment calling GB and I by name. Hope and I did well this week and in 24 hours, I am back to wondering why I bother trying.
I will post again when I can shake the negativity I am feeling.
7 comments:
I'm so sorry. I'm sharing some of your feelings today.
Hope has managed to triangulate between you and your hubby very well.
Can her nails be cut short enough so she doesn't leave 4-inch scratches?
Sometimes survival is just so hard. There are no answers, no simple solution. Nothing. But you will go on because you are strong and you are honest and brave. Hang in there!
((((HUGS))))) Hope your day was better and your drive home tonight/this afternoon goes well.
I mean what I told you this morning. GB and Momma need a road trip. :)
LOVE YOU!!
You should never have been allowed to adopt one special needs child, let alone two special needs children. You have disrupted your older child and put her in danger. Your age and your illness would have excluded you from many agencies. You prove how selfish adoption truly is, as your needs were fulfilled at the expense of children's needs.
trolls suck, hang in there, less than 100 days till I can hug you in person!
(((hugs)))
Hope today is better.
Go away, Lori.
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