pa·tience/ˈpāSHəns/
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I looked up the definition of patience this morning. "accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering". I have that part down. "without getting angry or upset.". Ahhh. With Hope, that seems to be my downfall. Why?
I know part of it is because I don't have the energy I used to. I can't be up all night and function well the next day. I think part of it is Hope's last seven weeks of behavior that has gotten worse each week. I have had Radlets before. My oldest daughter has RAD. I have never had a RAD before that went seven weeks without a good day. Not.a.single.good.day. She never lets up. Not being able to medicate her because of heart issues means she is up until 10 or 11 every night. Each week, I think, *well , we've hit rock bottom*. Each week she has proven me wrong. I get angry. I get upset.
This week I am going to try to be Zen. I am going into this week with no expectations. Maybe I will do better.
3 comments:
Wow. You are amazing. I have always been a patient person too but Delaney's manipulation is very trying on the patience, for sure.
(((Hugs)))
(((((hug))))) Praying, my friend, for that good day.
we are in the home stretch, I can hardly wait to see you. Hang in there with Hope, remind me I said that in 6 months.
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